Don't Question It!

okay, again with the blondes! Really! The Brunettes are waging a battle that they seriously cannot win. You see these shampoo commercials for "Beautiful Brunettes" and all that stuff, yada yada yada. please ladies. please. I love my hair. I think that my chocolate hair is wonderful, but I think its unfair that America is all blondes with blue eyes in curly piggy tails when they're kids, and then long blonde hair and thin frames when they're older. Not fair.

So, I rediscovered Age of Empires. Very good game. I'm not much of a gamer myself, but I really like that game. Makes me feel all ....powerful and stuff. Good things. Good things.

I hope everyone had a good Easter, mine was really depressing, but thats for another time. I have to go now and clean. oh woe of woes. The worst thing about living is the cleaning.

And if anyone wants a good book to read, that would be Terry Pratchett books. VERY GOOD>

Yours Truly,

The Lady Rosemary

BIF BAG!!!

Okay, so, who’da thunk it? ((((((MANSQUITO)))))) sucked ass big time. I mean seriously. It was bad. Dinner was good though. And I know that this was over 3 days ago and I’m sorry that I haven’t posted, but life has unfortunately been hectic and unhappy.
But something really good happened. I spoke with this lady over the phone and we had a nice long conversation, and ended up exchanging phone numbers and last night we spoke for like 4 hours. It felt really good to have someone to talk to. Especially someone older and wiser. She is 43, (21 at heart) with two kids and a husband. She basically went through the same thing that I’m going through, so she knows, and its so nice to have someone to talk to who won’t judge you and who know what you’re talking about.
Oh, …..we taped Mansquito. …… "for Kyle", or so Jayson says. Right. He just wants to keep the darn thing and play it over and over and over…….UUUUUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was that bad.
I think I might be getting sick. And dragging Jace down with me. He had icky belly today. That’s not good. Not good at all! Huh, jacey wacey icky poo??
Oh god, now I’m going to be really sick.
Well, there is so much going on. Saturday there is a casting call that I am going to try to get up the guts to go to, if anyone knows how to write up a resume for that kind of thing, please let me know. I never took the dramatic resume class. And I’m really thinking about going to a spa. I am tired and sore. It sucks.
So, blahdey blahdey blah. Have a good day all!
Yours Truly,
The Lady Rosemary

well....poopy

okay so I had this HUUUGE blog all written up and the weather, the MANSQUITO premier tomorrow night and a whole bunch of other stuff, but the higher powers......grrrrr.......saw fit to delete the whol friggin thing when I went to post it. I did spell check first and it did some weird voodoo and erased all of it, so, whatever.

mmm, I'm already smelling the chlorine from the pool. Partay in my pants pants in my partay!

The bomb diggity Lady.

Dreams

Have you ever had those memories where you're not sure whether they really happened or were just a dream? I have those a lot. Probably because my life has been so.....weird.
I'm a normal person, I've been working since I was 15, graduated high school, trying to go to college, (f*cking tuition is so f*cking high, and I didn't get the scholarship application filled out in time for the summer fall or spring semesters, 05/06, they were due on March 1st. WTF?!?!?), anyway, I would say I'm good looking, and "normal". But, I've been homeschooled for most of my life, I was born on the east coast on a military base in Virginia, my father divorced my mother when I wasn't even a year or so old. I've lived in Texas, Washington, several different places in California, one of them being a trailer park, and Missouri, in the Ozarks. So while you could call me an Oakey, you could also call me trailer trash, and "snob" or "preppy" as they like to say in high school. Quite a history I have there wouldn't you say?
Anyway, I have this one memory of being at a drive in. One of the old ones that had a play ground at the very front, and the snack shack at the back. I remember two things very well about that place and time. The first is, the song. "Hit the Road Jack". Seriously, I don't think I will ever forget that. And the other was cashews on a ham and pineapple pizza. Its good, don't knock it till you've tried it. But then, I haven't had it pretty much since then, and I don't even remember how old I was then, so....but still, it was good. Its strange the things you remember huh? Its almost as if you can remember things better from when you were a kid, than stuff that happened last week. Down to the details sometimes....I wonder why.
The reason why I brought that up is because I'm eating nuts, and there are cashews in there with them. I was thinking about getting a ham and pineapple pizza, and taking all the cashews out of the nuts, popping them on my pizza, backing it, and then eating it. Sounds like fun. I'm excited about all this, I really am.
Oh, my spins-around-dress. When I was little and living in San Bernadino, I had this purplish dress. I would put it on and do spins and watch it swirl up around me. Every dress after that one I would spin in, and if it didn't have a good float swirl, it wasn't a good dress. I remember that for punishment, my parents would take that dress away from me. :) I don't know whatever happened to it, but I like thinking about it.
Have you ever had something happen, or saw something, and later when you think about it, its all weird? Okay, like this one time, I accidentally say my step dad naked, when I was real little, and I cannot remember anything. Seriously, I don't want to either, but I'm just sayin, I can't remember. Must've been pretty traumatizing for my little girl mind.
About the same time I had a cabbage patch doll, (which I still have by the way), with red hair, she came with curlers and two outfits. She had the most beautiful hair, and it was long and silky. Well, she had a bath, (washer machine), and then she had to dry, of course, but my dad put her in the dryer.........and melted her hair. She now has a fro. I combed it out, but it is seriously, some nappy hair. Crazy. But I'm planning on keeping her forever and ever. I've had her for a long time. Her name is Mary Beth. I'm not sure who named her, my mom or myself, but thats her name. And I like it.
I have a lot of memories, but I'm sure right about now I've lost your attention by prattling on, so I will leave you with this thought........

Yours truly,

The Lady Rosemary

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Hey all, I'm not sure why that posted twice, but if any of you know how to delete one, please let me know.
Thanks,

The Lady

Bad Day?

No, don't worry I'm not having a bad day. Just asking.
So I got into work late again today. And I got talked to, so if I were to have a bad day, it would have started from there. I was only like 4 minutes late, but in my line of work, I can't be late like that. In fact I have to be here like 5 minutes before I have to clock in, just so everything is ready . *sigh* I get tired of sitting in front of a computer all day, so do my eyes. It sucks.

mmmmm, I'm eating this trail mix stuff that I got at Costco last night, and it had m&ms in it, yummy mcyum yum. I love m&ms right now. With their chocolatey goodness.

Its so nice to get callers who are happy, you know? I get a lot of calls where the people are just angry, or rude as hell, or, like before, just won't shut the hell up long enough for you to help them. And I hate it when they ask for my supervisor. Because they wouldn't shut up long enough for me to help them, they think I'm incompetent or something. stupid. ugh, but really, I'm not having a bad day.

The last couple of days have been nice. Jace and I kind of went through one of my rough periods and we're out of it just fine, and I love him more than ever. He is such a great guy, I would tell any girl who is serious about finding a good guy to look for one like him. He is patient, and kind. Loving and funny and sweet. He had a problem with chocolates there for a while, (he thought that hershey bars and m&ms were serious chocolate), but he is doing SO well now. If I didn't know better, I would swear he's trying to fatten me up. But he is so sweet.
I got my hair cut yesterday because it was time to get it done, and I swear, it looks like crap, (he thinks I'm cute, but....I know the truth.). You know when you have that feeling that something just isn't going to turn out right? We when she just kept on clipping, I got that feeling. Right in my gut. You know when you're cutting someone else's hair and you clip the little things, that turn out to be big things because, A. its "uneven", B. it "doesn't look right", and what should have been just a trim now needs a buzz cut because it looks like crap. Thats kind of what it felt like. But I'm trying to grow my hair out, and at least she got it evened out. Now, I'm not saying she did a bad job, she as very nice and all, but....I just wasn't a happy camper. I didn't like it. Lets just say that it would look just right if you shaved a bald spot right on the top of my head.
Anyway.....

I think I'm done, but if I think of something else to tell you, I'll be back.

Yours Truly,
The LadyRosemary

CAT! I'm a kitty cat, and I dance dance dance

This will make your day! I laugh every time! Its so great, so if any of you read the comments on my last post, this is the link I was talking about. Just thought I'd share it with the rest of my grand audience.
So I had a nice weekend. Quiet. Eerily quiet. Sha and I went out and bought an orange tree and some herbs, put them in planters and stuck them on our patio. They're soo pritty! We're going to get a lemon or lime tree next. I think lime. But I'm not sure still. But other than that nothing else interesting happened this weekend. Oh, we cleaned. That was interesting. Jace got the speakers set up, and now we have ((((((SURROUND SOUND))))))). Its very nice. I was groovin to Cake (?) while cleaning the living room. It was oh so grand. And we watched Return Of The King last night. Crazy loud. And I just have to say, we have some really cool neighbors. They're very nice.
Not to make you all too sick with nausea, but Jayson is the best boyfriend a girl could ever ask for. He is soo cute. We were getting ready to go this morning, and I'm running a little late again, so as I'm grabbing my shoes I look over into the kitchen, and there he is chopping up some melon and apple, and making me a lunch. He wrapped us a piece of pizza for me and I'm like, "Honey, I don't get a lunch today." And he was like, "oh." (he said some other stuff too, but thats now relevant at this time.) But the point is, he's so cute! making me a lunch, and I don't even get a lunch. Yup, that my boy for ya. He's the most awesome man, lover and friend a girl could ever want. And he's mine.
okay, you can put the barf bucket away now, I'm done.
Have you ever had one of those mornings where you stretch and it feels SO good? oh yeah, I've been having one of those. mmmm, I love to stretch early in the morning. It feels sooo good. Why does it feel so good?? Someone tell me please. I would like to know. Thank you.
mmmm, yes, ravioli. That is some good sh*t. And on that note, I thee leave.

Yours Truly,
The Lady Rosemary

My favorite channel is the Sci Fi channel. I think thats the best thing to happen to TV since movie previews. And cartoons. The reason why I love the sci fi channel as much as I do is because of the cheesy sci fi original movie previews they have on there. So funny. There's this one that they've been playing for this movie that they are calling......*dramatic pause* MANSQUITO!!!!! Okay, if any of you has ever heard of MST3K, and watched any of that stuff, right about now you would be rolling on the floor in laughter. I mean, these people are Serious about this movie!! The costumes are hilarious, and the acting looks like its going to be....good......(pfft, tehehe) , and I am prepping my VCR (instructions from the Lord of Darkness Himself, Jayson) for some recording action. ......lol....mansquito......anyway, its going to be on the Sci Fi channel on March 12 at 9pm eastern time. Watch it with me people, and laugh. Oh yes, laugh like nothing else matter, because for those two hours, nothing else will. (It would probably help if you had some nice alcohol, and every time there was a stupid cliche line, or every time they say mansquito, take a drink.)
Anyway, on to more important stuff. It smells of burrito in here. And thats saying something. I work in a large space, and for the smell of burrito to be this strong, thats got to be some damn good burrito. I just hope who ever is eating it isn't sitting near me. And the bad news is, the bathroom isn't that close.......nose plug ready!
So.....Jace and I are finally moved out of the old apartment......I am sad. I miss that place. We had a lot of firsts in that apartment. Our first birthdays, holidays, our one year anniversary, the beginning of my parental tribulation. (long story for some other time.) Its sad really. We were walking through the empty place saying goodbye, and it was a little difficult, but he was able to scrape my body, (that happened to be plastered to the wall) off and into the truck.
We had to go back to move out the last big thing, the weight machine, and it was a serious pain in my butt. Well, more literally, my ankle. We had to carry it down a flight of stairs, and on my end there was this flat metal plate that kept bumping into the back of my leg and ankle, and now its all bruised right there. Some crazy sh*t. crazy sh*t.
Oh, horrible light!! Someone just turned on all the lights here. nasty people. I came in at 5:05, (I was late) AM, and it was all dark in here, my eyes got used to it, and to make (what I'm going to make) a long story short, the bright light hurt the little girls eyes. blah.
I'm hungry. I didn't get breakfast this morning because I was late, and I don't want any of my edamame beans because during the course of my being at home all day yesterday with nothing to do and nothing to eat, I ate a whole bag of those things. I'm sure my stomach is full of hate for me right now, and I don't blame him, he puts up with a lot of crap from me. No pun intended, and I don't know why he's a he. It just seems right. The rest of me is all girl, believe you me, except on those nights when I'm channeling Jayson's ass, and thats ALL him. He'll know what I'm talking about, won't you baby?? (tsk tsk HAHAHA)
My co-workers must definitely think I'm a crazy loon. Sitting here in my corner giggling like a mad woman. But thats fine, thats just fine. Let them think that. It takes the wisdom of the weak and the stomach of the strong to understand me. Don't try. You won't be able to. I am a puzzle. Wrapped in an enigma. Wrapped in a vest, and it just so happens to be winter time, so isn't that a nice coincidence?
To All my Fans, I salute you! (pfffft)

Yours Truly,

The (somewhat disgusting this time around) Lady Rosemary

Seriously, just for a minute

I feel the need to be serious for a minute because things haven't been all happy and go lucky lately. Have you ever had one of those days/weeks/etc where nothing seems right, and your heart breaks at even the smallest things. And no, I'm not talking about pms, I'm talking about deep feelings that have been buried so deep down inside that when something triggers them, even the tiniest thing, it drives you mad. Thats what I'm talking about.
So I pulled out my guitar last night, and I just can't seem to play, my mind is blank and I have no music left in me. So it was quite a shock today when I was working out and words started to spill into my brain. This was what was in my heart, my feelings at the time, you can take them or leave them, but don't apply them to you personally. These are my feelings.
there must've been angels around my bed that night
Hey, we dont want this one
Hell you can have this one
They left without leaving grace
The only thing they gave me was this face
My mother told me God chose me
the only thing He chose was a vessel
A vessel He wanted to change
I was empty, and kept getting left behind
Too bad the only thing left in me was this mind
Nothing, no one has ever left me filled
The only thing I know, from that time before
was that He left me, and I was empty.
There is nothing now, no one to hold
Nothing left to be told, the only thing still in this empty vessel
is this mind.
believe if you want
believe if you must,
but I was left, no love given
too much taken
I was left empty.
anyway, take it how you will, but I'm excersising my artistic liscense with this poem/or draft, whatever you want to call it, but don't take it too seriously. Its just me, blowing off steam, letting it out.
anyway, ya'll have a good day, and don't lie. Lying hurts people, maybe not as much as You can see, but it does. Think about that.

The Lady

blondes

I don't understand, why are there more blondes on TV than brunettes?? Why are they more popular?? I mean, brunettes are pretty too. Whats the deal? And seriously, most of the blondes are bottle blondes. I have NOTHING against blondes so don't get me wrong, I think that they're cute, but really, we brunnettes would like some attention too.
Can anyone give me different characteristics between the blondes and brunettes. We can throw redheads in there too if you want. That would be fine. I'd just like to know. .... you know?
So I had a jr whopper meal an hour or so ago and then some gummy worms, oh my god, my diet is so bad. But now my stomach feels like crap man. hmmmm.......
I'm all wacky right now, not myself. (and I haven't even been drinking! - I don't drink often, just wine now and then with dinner, really good, you should try it). I'm really tired, so give me a break here.
The last couple of days have been really hard. I was in SUCH a bad mood, and it all started at KFC. You heard me right, K. F. C. It was a simple lunch trip really, all I wanted was the chicken strip meal, with the strips dipped in bbq sauce, mac and cheese, and cole slaw. The guy who took our order didn't speak hardly a word of english. I didn't get what I ordered, and the service was just.....I am so flabbergasted by it. Now, I know and love some Mexicans, but come on, if you are in the United States, you need to learn how to speak the national language. Just like in Europe, when you're a visitor, you need to know the language. *sigh* and then the rest of my day and the next sucked SO bad. I'm not saying that KFC is The Reason why, but thats where it started....
Okay, how is a little kid cussing and flipping off his friends funny? I don't get it. Sometimes I think I'm living in an alternate universe and I'm surrounded by strangers.
Someone, tell me I'm not crazy!! Pleaseeeee!!!!!!!! Either that or send me a lifeline.

yours Truly,

The Lady Rosemary